Is Life a Merry-Go-Round?

Have you ever been on a Merry-Go-Round? As a child, it seemed like a fun ride but as I got older, I realized that going in circles is not as fun as I thought. Seeing the same images and experiencing the same emotions is quite exhausting, not exhilarating.

For YEARS, I was on this Merry-Go-Round. Experiencing the same financial issues, experiencing the same type of men with different faces (sometimes the same face ha-ha), experiencing the same type of disappointment, the same depression, the same cloud lurking over me. I remember there was a time in my life when the only movement you would see in me was flipping to the other side of the bed because dreams were better than reality. If I was going to endure a Merry Go’ Round of images and experiences, it was going to be the one I created in my sleep rather than the real ones I encountered in my life.

I would constantly ask God “How do I get out of this CYCLE?!”

I thought I would never receive a clear answer. The truth is that answer was in the Bible the whole time.

1 Peter 5:5 says, “For God resists the proud, and gives grace to the humble”.

The Greek definition of resists in this verse means to range in battle and oppose. Not only did God oppose everything I did he was ACTIVELY battling me.

For years, God resisted me because I wanted to do things MY WAY, I was the god over my life and was rewarded justly for it. Imagine, a little girl (because that’s what we are in the eyes of an eternal God) thinking she knew how to run her life better than an eternal God, who created all things and knows all things.

I would love to say that I just woke up one day and had an epiphany of this and surrendered to God and life was great! Truth is, it wasn’t until I hit the lowest /darkest point in my life (I will share that story later 😊) that I finally said, “It is ENOUGH!”.  

I did not humble myself; I was HUMBLED. There is a huge difference and if you know, then you KNOW it is not a fun process. Then and only then did the grace of God come upon my life and I saw this Merry-Go-Round turn into a path. The same habitual scenery, and emotions I was so used to feeling started to disappear and now I have hope.

Years of my life were stolen because of my pride. All this, while being a believer and saying I love God. Elijah said it best in 1 Kings 18:21 “How long will you falter between two opinions? If the LORD is God, follow Him; but if Baal, follow him.” I no longer falter between two opinions; the Lord is God!

My task for you (I hope you’re okay with tasks because the point of this blog is not to entertain you, it’s to bring a radical shift in your life) is to evaluate your life. See where pride has reared its ugly head in your life, it is usually the areas you have not surrendered to God because you believe your way is better. Believe me, your way is not better. If you are not sure where pride exists in your life, well thank God for the Holy Spirit. Get into prayer and ask Him to reveal any areas in your life where pride exists and is not surrendered to Him.

Guarantee He will answer you! Just make sure you LISTEN.

Written by: Elisarri